Why it is really hard to not eat sumptuous foods in a day? Why can't I exclude desserts, afternoon snack and midnight snack in my daily twenty-four hour menu? Maybe my body is so use to eating these daily dishes and if I suddenly change my eating manner and time, surely, I'm gonna be sick.

I always feel so happy whenever I eat especially sweets yet becoming so depress for I'm gaining too much calories my body can no longer handle. I look so plump and seems I'm a laughing stock in school for I can't fit on any seat. My classmates are all regretful for I look so good before when I have an average body type and that expression makes me feel sadder. I feel sorry for myself.

I need fasting and abstinence. Can I do it? That's a big question, I'm so pressured to answer. I want to be fit again but then in the back of my mind I never wanted to stop eating my favorite dishes. Why it is so hard to be overweight. I hope I won't be on the list, dissertation, and statistics of the obese people. *cross fingers